.
the world spins in a car wheel on a wet road
shhhlllrppp tshhhhlppr
i re-boot my laptop wondering
about walls, shifting points& optical
illusions
this one’s deep&juicy,red like strawberries
that sit on a table in the kitchen
and in spreading half dark
dizzy you with the exuding scent of summer
from their pores/ sipped
thirsty-lipped from bell flower jars
with the last few drops of spring trick-
–ling
down your cheeks
“i’m sorry” i say to my husband, standing in the living room
“i need my mattress, i can’t sleep &”
“take it, it’s ok”
he leaves
and comes back as i try to make the gap
at least look nice, bent over a pile of bedcloth, wrapping–
“i just tried– it looks so terrible– i– ”
& don’t want to// but start crying
my daughter’s baking fresh bread in the kitchen
& he pulls me up and holds me
“it is tough for me as well” i say
“i talked to the counselor–”
“so you wanna do the marriage course?”
he nods “i’ll call you next week”
& i get back in the car,
mattress squished /a wounded knight
robbed of all their armor/
between my elbow, right cheek,
pair of scissors,
and a pile of summer clothes
.
sometimes it needs distance to be able to work on things and start again..
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Oh… Claudia… you made me weep.
Very poingant Claudia. >KB
it is hard there in the inbetween, not knowing if forward or back is better, what is real and what is illusion…a wounded knight robbed of the armor…a poignant line…
I am so sorry, Claudia! I hope the distance does help.
Even when decisions are well thought out they are difficult for everyone. Often it seems that life’s journey takes one unexpected places. I am sure you will end up in the right place for you. Hoping that distance helps in your thought process. All the best…and do take care.
Hang in there Claudia. I’ve was in a similar place last year. I hope things get better. *hugs*
Wishing the best for you and yours my friend.
You have developed a style that is light and beautiful – even in sadness.
One of the great sorrows of life remains that we only control our own actions – but I believe in healing and miracles
Ah. Claudia, I recall you hinted in a comment a year back.. but I thought everything was fine.. hope a little distance helps… life is not always easy.. but you still create beauty out of it.
Keep chalking the hearts – they’re better than outlines of whole bodies, even if the fault-lines are showing.
I hope things work out well for everyone. This is a poignant piece. My heart goes out to you.
Hopefully things work out how they should indeed at your feed, and things look up soon
I can feel this so much Claudia it made me teary. A wounded knight without their armour…that’s how it feels when all defenses are down. I hope distance gives you room to breathe that’s important. Take care of you and I wish you all the best and hope things work out.
Ah, Claudia, every next moment – dif. point of view…and maybe tomorrow everything will come back to balance…xx ~ ‘the world spins in a car wheel on a wet road’ ~ love the sketch.
Thank you for sharing this Claudia. It’s hard to share pain. But you write it so that it pulls at your heart, while all along thinking, “Wow. No one could have said this better.” Of course, my heart is with you and yours. Hugs.
I agree. Sometimes we need to lose something to know its true worth. Great poem
Very poignant with that tinge of sadness. Wonderful write Claudia!
Hank
It’s only a matter of time. You will slide through it, you’ll see. It took me some months in splendid isolation, and he’d leave flowers on my temporary doorstep, not wanting to disturb my healing.
this is heartbreaking Claudia…”…../a wounded knight / robbed of all their armor”…
such a poignant line….hope everything works out well….
The ending was unexpected, I had no idea ~ I hope things work out for you and your family ~ Hugs Claudia ~
Well expressed and understood…
Claudia, such a heartbreaking scene – you share all the intimate moments so painfully beautifully – praying for the best outcome for you and your family – K
A very poignant poem, pain explained so simply, hope all well. K.
Very true sometimes we need a little space of our own, though in our heart our family will always be the priority.
Loved the line about the wounded knight – such an image!
My heart aches for you. Raw and poignant piece.
Tina @ Life is Good
I could feel the pain in each line as you write with a style that takes the reader right there with you. The journey in life is full of twists and turns I hope you find the path best suited for you. Sending positive energy and healing..
Life is so very hard sometimes, Claudia. And yes, distance is often healing and gives perspective. I really ached for you when I read this. Love is such a mixed-up emotion and because it’s so powerful, it’s easy to slip in an opposite directions. Sending you love, prayers and wishes for healing, dear friend.
Claudia, this poem leaves me without words, but with a heart that so understands how hard this endless learning and trying is. Hold your heart in gentle hands. I love the tone of hope in this poem. Where two hearts are willing, everything is possible.
Wow! Laceratingly honest writing, Claudia and perfectly pitched too, as in:
“& i get back in the car,
mattress squished /a wounded knight
robbed of all their armor/
between my elbow, right cheek,
pair of scissors,
and a pile of summer clothes”
Whatever your struggle and pain, you are a shining talent for sure… With Love Scott
Sometimes distance does help and I hope it does for you. There is a lot of sadness in this poem. thanks for sharing it
ugh…tough indeed…but trying, trying is important
never know when a writer is living something themselves or through others… which ever it is… you did it well… others struggling with the same thing… you’ve only spoken what we’re thinking… may God heal
Sorry. That’s all I can say. Beautiful poem, though. WIsh you best of luck.
Greetings from London.
Claudia, best of the best to you if this is autobio. Alofas from Silver Spring, MD.
It felt as if I accidentally intruded upon a private, vulnerable moment. It takes courage to share such things.
I think it is smart to give some space and a second chance.