>you lie there – right in front of me
your back reflects on the black
polished wood like in a mirror
and i assess you, wondering
if now is the right moment
but am i ready for what you
have to give?
heart beats nervous
will i get what you want to tell?
am i in the right mood?
is there such a thing?
i have my hopes set high
built hurdles up like mountains
too high to jump and
for getting away without
the thought of being bruised
and keeps me from taking you
and giving you a try
the anticipation of what you
could do to my soul
birthing deepest delights
or casting darkest shadows
is growing every minute
but i don’t want to waste this moment
on some squeezed in space of busy day
so instead of reading
i write, so that the mountain might split
and welcomes me to enter
when time has come
I’ve ordered “Delights&Shadows” of Ted Kooser after J. of “thinking with an open mouth” wrote a poem about it and recommended it to me….and when I got it, I was afraid to start reading.
So i wrote this poem and e-mailed it to J. to ask him if it was ok to mention him when posting it.
He was ok and liked the poem and asked if i would allow him to play a bit with it. I told him to go ahead and was curious what he would do.
He didn’t change a lot – but he took some of the “stones” and re-arranged them – so the flow changed. And when he mailed it back, i was amazed. He also asked lots of questions and helped me look at it with others than just my own eyes – and so a process of editing started…and i’m really, really thankful he took the time. He’s an amazing writer and i love what he writes over at his place.
So this poem still bears the core of what i first scribbled down – it still makes my heart beat wildly when i read it – it still feels so familiar – but with a dash of a non-familiar spice that I wouldn’t have thought of putting in – but glad i did because it adds so much to the taste.
So that was kind of fusion cooking and I hope you enjoyed eating…